Quaerere ... ~ Dancer of the Soul ..

Quaerere ...
~ Dancer of the Soul..

Maybe the truth is
I can't be happy
or accepting
the what-has-been
the what-is
yet ?
because ... then what ?
Perhaps it is all about the Quest
the search
learning to live my journey ...
'cause the more lost I feel
the more remains to look forward to ?
Will I find the Dancer of my Soul ~

Maybe I should accept
to be a daring explorer
and face
my fears ?
still - the total obliteration of my 'longing for death'
the other life
my unsafe safe-Haven
terrifies me
... myriad times have I attempted to let it go
infinite times returned to it
And still this one thing recurs
- I do not want to die - but I do ..
two parts in me ?
will I submit to the Dancer of this Soul ?

If this is my Quest
itineris
wherever it may bring me
I should go ?
A moment should hold the ability
to change everything
when I think I can be brave
cross the threshold of my heart -
forget to look back
at ... bygones
just BE in the moment
.. one moment at a time
~ embracing the Dancer of this, my Soul ~


(krekel - 4Wolf)