sometimes

sometimes
'pack-members' remind me
of the options
of the choices
of a billion and one opportunities ...

"in the depth of winter, I finally learned That within me there lay an invincible summer."
this special message - from across an ocean - holds so much truth

and yes, all that is, is Alive ~
so there lies the one and only choice - to digg deeper and find the way to rediscover a summer within
to stop treading the tight-rope
to Feel Alive again , to accept all Feelings ... even the hopeless ones ... and not judge myself for them

miss people , miss places , miss teachers , miss friends ... cherish memories
and the one teacher within
has new lessons to teach , to learn , to overcome, to grow by ~
-creations -

Equilibrium ~ I am an Equilibrist ?

equilibrium
do I need to stop wearing
the mask I chose the day before Time started ...
or should I truly care
to be
to wear
my own face ?

on this tight-rope
I am an equilibrist
balancing between over- or under- ?
losing a step
faking another one
catching a glimpse of expectation ...

and there used to be
a safety-net ?
not !
if all falls with me,
will I remain ?

(Krekel - 4Wolf)

when dead ... When dead, I will not socialize ~

when dead ...
if fear is my guide
and a wake-up call the trigger
should I look for sunbeams
in another "why does life always start" tomorrow ?

when dead ...

There is no after tomorrow
there is no before today

Time no longer is mine?
yet there is the dead-line

so I cannot go on
but I cannot go back ?

time which no longer is
will make me lose this battle

my un-ever choice
the pursuit it destroys

for one word will now strive
too soon away, or life ~
(krekel-as in 4Wolf.)

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when I'm dead

there is no need to remember
when I'm dead ~
nor to cry
for when dead
an endless stream of wishes
will be captured by this sense
and roam no-man's-land
across these battlefields ...

before a Time ends
and the next begins
a void occurs to take away
all superfluities
expectations
endeavours to belong

I cannot be a friend
to ghosts and phantoms
for my apparition is
a chimera
a haunted spectral

when dead
I will not socialize.
(krekel - 4Wolf)